Seriously...

So this is going to be a continuation of my last entry...so warning if you don't want to hear about douchebaggy guys...skip this post.

I had this total epiphany last night. I think i may have finally kicked attraction to jerks. You know i always wondered why the douchebag asses of the world somehow gravitated to me like bees to honey...and then i realized...it's not really their fault...it's me. I might as well have a sign on my forehead that says douchebags welcome. I don't know what it is exactly that i do but i must in some subconscious way signal to them id be receptive to them all the while dismissing the nice guy right in front of my face. And then this lead me to the further conclusion that girls are equally so if not more responsible for the creation of these douchebags.

Let me start at the beginning...so we remember the super cute man whore...i opted not to inform him of my whereabouts all night...of course he ultimately txts me...now i could have just ignored it...forget about it and let it go...but you know what i'll admit it a part of me wanted to think that maybe this "rep" he had was in the past maybe he was different...so he asks me if we're still at the place...to which i respond a simple yes (at this point it is 2 in the am, so that in and of itself should have signaled something to me)...of course i hear nothing back from him until 3:30...at this point we had left place 1 and were at place 2...so at 3:30 this jerk is saying hes going to head over to where I am...to which i politely respond sorry i've left (i fail to mention that we've simply shifted to another place i think it best to just have him think he missed his shot). One would think this would be the end of it, situation handled, end of story. Think again. This boy proceeds to txt me multiple times asking me if him and his friends can come over. Call me old fashioned, but did you really just ask to come to the place where i'm staying (which isn't even my apartment)having NEVER even met me before. SERIOUSLY, I was blown away by the audacity of this boy. More than anything, i was offended! Is this the type of girl he's used to...moreover HAS THIS ACTUALLY WORKED FOR HIM! He was really quite persistent about coming over and then i realized...he thinks he can get away with this because he has gotten away with this. Obviously enough girls have fallen for this and he's gotten what he's wanted out of it.

So here's my main point. I don't mean to get all feminist crazy on everyone...but we as women need to have more respect for ourselves. We need to understand that whether we realize it or not we encourage this kind of behavior in guys by allowing them to treat us like that. I see it so much in the younger girls especially, hooking up with as many guys as they can and these guys that use them for one thing and treat them as disposable objects. I mean thing is, at the end of the day, if that's all you want, then that's fine for you. But, I feel like as much as girls want to think we can hook up and behave just like guys completely unattached, it's not true. I just feel like i've noticed a distinct pattern over the years in how guys treat girls and there is just growing lack of respect for women and i'm not just talking about my personal experience i'm talking in the public and media...everywhere you look there's another story about some guy beating up his gf or cheating on his wife with 15 women (cough tiger woods cough)...and the media makes light of it and we joke about girls getting punched in the face (snookie) but if we really stop and think about it...it's disgusting.

anyways...that's my rant...maybe this is coming from a selfish place...because these guys think they can get any girl and treat her any way they want they assume i'd be no different...and i resent that. And i don't mean to sound like i'm better than anyone...trust me there's been times i wished i was just like those girls who didnt give a crap and did whatever...but that's not who i am, i never have been and i never will be. I guess all i can do is just keep setting these guys straight...one at a time hahahaha...well all i know is i'm pretty positive i won't have to worry about hearing from this particular character. Good riddance.